Westward Ho!!

Tiger and I have been married for over a year and it still feels like we're newly weds. We just can't seem to get enough of each other. I love him and I love being married. I find the most joy in my life by being Tiger's wife and caring for our little family. No Tiger cubs yet but we're trying and trying is half the fun. We're anxious to see our family grow, but in the mean time this midwest flower has been transplanted to the deserts of Arizona.

*Sigh*

Its really hot here. Its dirty and dusty and this Phoenix I live in has a strange dirty smell to it. It's not just a plain o' dirty smell its a hot, burning, baking, dirty, dusty smell. I do like the area of Phoenix that I live though. I live half way up a little mountain hill. Its really peaceful there and it has cool breezes and a gentle peacefulness about it.

Tiger and I like it here so far. He grew up here so he's familiar, but I'm having a bit of a hard time with all this change. We're currently living with Tiger's Dad in a tinny little house that no one seems to know how to take care of. And since its not really mine I'm powerless to do anything about it. It is so unbelieveably cluttered and messy. I dread having to walk in there. We're close to having our own place but in the mean time I live here with Tiger's dad and Tiger's brother. I forgot how it is living with a bunch of men. I have four brothers and growing up with them was both a joy and a misery. Boys smell. They don't fold their clothes and they don't do the dishes. They dirty every single dish and glass and piece of silverware before they wash one and they only wash one if they can't find a plastic one to use instead. The list of grievences goes opn and on... and Tiger won't let me do my own laundry because their wash room is so over run with junk that he doesn't want me to get hurt or break down down in tears with the sight of it. Its been interesting living there to say the least. Tiger's dad also reminds me of The Ex which is definately not fun.

*Sigh*

Phoenix.....

Oh my....

I dunno about this, but this is where I am for now, and I'm okay with that. Despite the hardships and the lonely hard times this is where we need to be. We prayed about this for many hours and many mionths before we decided to plant ourselves here and in spite of it all I still say,

"Westward Ho! and Hello Adventure!"

I'm sure I'll still bloom where I'm planted. It'll be great. This midwest flower just needs more water.

Miss M

Alive and Very Very Well.

I realize that my blog is now highly neglected. But its difficult to pry myself away from my wonderful hubby. I do miss it though. There were a few moments when I wished we hadn't gotten rid of our internet connection. Lovely moments of inspiration wasted because I didn't want to drive across town to use my moms internet.

Oh well I guess.....

I love being married. Being Tigers wife is the greatest and most wonderful privalege and honor. He is the sweetest and most tender person. He takes pride and joy in making sure that his wife is happy. I just can't be unhappy in his precense. I laugh all the time when I'm with him. Tiger was first and foremost my best friend and he continues to be in every sense of the word. Its fun watching as our relationship contines to grow and we mesh ourselves and our lives together more and more. Its hard to think straight with this mind numbing love funk enveloping my very core when ever I think of how wonderfully blissful my life is. I would go into more detail but I need to get some things done. I just wanted y'all to know that I'm alive and happily kicking.


Mrs. M

In Not So Many Days

I'm getting married. :)

At the end of the month. :) :)

Yay for me! Hehehe

Tiger proposed on our one year anniversary. It was absolutely perfect. I would go into details but I think those details are meant just for he and I. We'd be the only ones to get it anyway. Needless to say but it was magical just like everything else we do. He proposed by candlelight in the freshness of the twilight darkness on a deck over looking a river in our favorite wooded hiking spot. It makes me sigh happy sighs just thinking about it.

Our whole relationship has been a beautiful romantic fairytale story. Everyday I feel more blessed and Every moment we're together he makes me feel beautiful and treasured and cherished. I thought after the hell I went through with Ex that I would be shattered forever and yet, to my awed astonishment, Tiger has repaired every wound and every pain and mended every tender heart ache. I get to marry my best friend. When I first met him and this all started I couldn't imagine it all turning out like this. He made me fall for him and now I'm smitten. I'm gleefully and joyfully over the moon in love with him. All the terrible things before him has made me extraordinarily grateful to have Tiger in my life. Tiger and I are getting married in a Temple of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints so not only will he be my husband but he will be my eternal companion. In our temples we are sealed together for all time and eternity as husband and wife and I believe that truth without any doubt. What a great feeling it is to know, to believe and to have faith in this ordinance and to know that this man that I love will be with me always.

Everything with him has been so wonderful. So wonderful in fact that I keep wondering when our life will hit its limit for happiness, but it just keeps getting better and better and I see no reason why it shouldn't. We've both had promises and assurances from Heavenly Father that we will have happiness and contentment in our lives as we continue to follow the teachings of His gospel. My life is a gift. The greatest adventures of my life are ahead of me. The adventures of being a wife, of becoming a mother, of growing old with Tiger and deepening our love for each other through every happiness and heartache our life together may bring.

I'm getting married in not so many days and I can hardly wait to get to the "and they lived happily ever after"

Miss M

I have been a real slacker with my blog lately. I miss it and I feel bad I haven't written in such a long time. But even when your life is heaven its still busy. Having Tiger here is absolutely fantastic. Its even more wonderful than I ever imagined it would be. But like I said Life is busy so I'll have to tell you all about it later. Sorry :(

Miss M

Heaven Makes Me Tired

Well Tiger has been a little over two weeks now and its been so great. I knew I would be happy if he were here but I didn't realize I could be this happy. The trip out there and back was great. I had a god time with Tiger's family. His dad likes me now so that made the trip even better. His dad didn't like me much before but once he realized that I would take care of Tiger and that his son really does love me he's been much better about the whole thing. The road trip back in the rental car was long but it was such a blast. We had a fantastic time together. We spent a day in Colorado Springs close to where I used to live and I got to take him to a few of my favorite places and we stayed with my aunt who lives in Colorado for a couple nights. The whole thing was great. We took our time and drove back at a pretty leisurely pace. It was great, greater than I thought it could be.

Its been fun setting up his apartment with him. I know I don't really live there but it feels like our home because we've both worked so hard for it. I spend all of my free time here even when he's not here. I only go home to sleep and shower. All of this makes me want to marry him even more than I did before. I hate going home at night and not being able to be with him in all the ways I want to. Its a very sweet form of torture but I love it. I love him. I'm just so happy. everything with Tiger feels like such a dream. I can hardly believe that this is my life that this wonderful fantasticness is really mine. Tiger is so great for me. He loves me so much. When I think I look the worst is when He thinks I'm the cutest. I think my glasses make me look nerdy and that I look awful with my hair up but he loves it. He loves everything about me. Tiger makes me feel so cherished. I really love feeling that way. Its sort of a new to me and I can't get enough of it. His love makes me feel whole again. He makes right all the wrongs and hurts I've gone though. This is my heaven on earth and its just getting better and better.

I thought I'd get more sleep with him here but I don't. I might even be getting less. :) I'm up late with him all the time and when he's not here I'm cleaning the place up and keeping busy and I'm always busy with him and going and doing. I'm tired. Heaven makes me tired but I couldn't care less I love it. I love him and I love having him here with me. Its wonderful. This is my life and I love every moment of it.

Miss M

Hold on Baby Here I come!

I'm going to Phoenix!! Tomorrow!!! I am sooo excited!!! Can you tell?! hehe I fly out Tuesday and then we're gonna head back to Illinois on Thursday in the rental car. I am so excited I can hardly breathe. I'm excited to see him again. I'm excited to go to Phoenix. I'm excited to kiss him. I'm excited to spend time with him and his family. I'm excited to help him back. I'm excited for my road trip with Tiger. I'm excited for lots of things but I'm most excited about the beginning a life with Tiger. Its going to be so nice to be able to spend time with him. Friday I picked up the keys to Tigers apartment from the landlord. Saturday the men of my church helped me to move all the furniture of mine that Tiger's going to use to his apartment. The apartment is still being remodeled a little so I couldn't set up or unpack anything because we had to put everything in the one finished room so they can finish the rest of the place with out getting everything dusty and dirty. Yesterday I packed all my clothes and things for the trip. When I get home tonight I have to finish packing my makeup and bath stuff.

I can hardly stand the excitement. Its almost tangible. This feeling is electric. Its sparking inside every part of me all the way into my fingers stemming from the very center of my being. Tiger is getting really excited too. This feeling is better than Christmas Eve. The anticipation, the hope, and the pure happiness of waiting for Santa is fantastic but this excitement is unreal. I was hoping that a busy day at work would keep my mind occupied but no. Work ended up being really slow and time is just inching barely crawling by. I feeling like I've been here forever. Tiger is getting off earlier than he normally does tonight and so when I can talk to him the excitement level is really going to go through the roof. I hope I'll be able to sleep tonight because my flight leaves really early in the morning tomorrow.

This is wonderful. I get to see my love tomorrow and all I can say is:

Hold on Baby here I come!!


Miss M

Full Speed Ahead!!

Tiger bought my plan ticket a little bit ago. I signed the lease for his apartment on Friday and we have our rental car reserved. And we've done a million other little things to get ready for this move. Things are really starting to move now. The pace is defiantly starting to pick up. This is really happening I can hardly believe it. By the end of April he'll be here living here in the same state that I live in. I will get to see him as much as I feel like. I'll have someplace to go at night and someone to spend my time with. He'll finally be here for me to shower affection on, to love, to serve, to cherish and giggle with. I've known that this was happening that this is really coming true but now I feel it. The excitement thats permeating from the very core of me is filling my life and my world with the most beautiful glow of happiness and bliss. I'm not just excited for my trip or our upcoming time together in the car having whats sure to be the best road trip of my life but I'm excited for everything that comes with him. Tiger is going to be not only my boyfriend but my fiance, my husband, my lover, the father of my children and he's going to be my best friend for the rest of eternity. He wiggled his way into my heart, ruthlessly making me fall in love with him long before I realized that I was even ready to fall again. Tiger is different than any other man thats come before him because not only did he make me fall in love with him but he made sure that my delicate heart had a soft place to land. Tiger ever so gently reminded me of the woman I used to be before hurtful people damaged me. I was damaged to the point that I barely knew who I was and not only did his friendship remind me but it revived me. His friendship alone was wonderful but now I get to be loved by him too. I get to know what it is to be happy when you're with someone. I get to live a life free of heart ache. It won't be free of trials or hardships but I know that I will never again have any doubts that I am loved or ever have my heartbroken so severely by someone who loves me. Tiger won't ever hurt me like that. So....

FULL SPEED AHEAD!!!

Bring on the LOVE!!!!!!

Miss M